34 weeks and 1 day

This picture is from a week ago.  I don't have a picture from today but I am currently 34 weeks and 1 day pregnant with this little guy.  At 34 weeks and 1 day with Griffin and Jackson, I delivered them both 5 1/2 pounds each 6 weeks early.  It amazes me that I had them at this point in my pregnancy.  But looking back on my journal, I was 7 inches wider around the belly and 10 pounds heavier.  It appears that this baby is around 5 pounds and average size at this juncture whereas Griffin and Jackson were above average and obviously so.  I do remember that at about 30 weeks with Griffin and Jackson, I was miserable.  I just have become miserable with this baby and know that I have about a month left.

MOTHERS DAY 2012

Today is my third Mothers Day and it was a great one.  I was really dreading it because Mike is out of town but having a lunch date with Haley, Isabella and all of my kids made this day wonderful.  FYI: Haley is holding Griffin and I am holding Jackson.

Today is also my 6th wedding anniversary.  So I was initially double sadden when he had to be out of town.  This has been a crazy year with a lot of ups and downs and a lot of surprises.  But we have grown closer because of it and I am extremely happy about where we are and where we have come.

Griffin and Jackson are 15 months old and super fun.  They started walking between 13-14 months.  Its so cute.  They waddle around all over the place.  They climb the stairs and everything else they can get their feet on.  They are into everything.  They have surprised me beyond words.  I walked into their room at the beach house the other day to find out that Jackson had thrown his dirty diaper into Griffins pack n play.  Griffin took his diaper off and threw it on the floor then peed all over the floor and pack n play.  They are definitely different than little girls (Bryggen) and as active as she was there was no preparing me for them.  I have my hands completely full and here comes another one.  Though I am beyond excited about this special child, I am exhausted already.  I am over 28 weeks along with him (Baby No Name) and doing great.  He is super busy so I guess he will fit right in with his siblings.

We've already started spending a lot of time at the beach house even though there are workers there daily finishing up at a turtle rate.  I love the house and never want to leave it.  I am so blessed that Mike and I have been able to do together.  Getting settled is taking time and its a lot of work especially with the three kids.  I don't have help there so trips to the store or short but many.  I will post some pictures of the house after its completed if not before.

Proverbs 22:6 and Matthew 11:28

Most of you that really know me know that I am a nervous/worrisome person. Today seemed to be a normal day without reason for worry yet I had a lot of nervousness inside. Probably all hormonal since there really isn't something I can pinpoint my anxiety to but it was there. So, it was wonderful when I was reading my devotional tonight(hours after my anxiety height) that dealt with the things I worry the most about on a daily basis. I worry the most with being the best spouse and parent. I worry with rushing life so fast that I miss out on all of these special days I have with my family. I mentally take a moment each day to absorb all the good and bad of that day. I do a great job of being grateful for my life and I try to humble myself before the Lord for the blessings He has provided. Yet, I still find myself panicking that I won't be as good as I need to be. I am sure most of us are this way but in the end I know I am too hard on myself. And I have realized this more this pregnancy because I have weekly nightmares. They are not just nightmares. They are horrific and usually send me yelling or almost in tears. The depth of the nightmares are so intense yet the reason seems so clear. (I do not believe dreams tell the future. Instead I believe they remind you of the true and deep and inner thoughts that you as a person had that day- knowingly or not) So, this devotional I read today was just about the worries I have as a wife and mother. Here are the scriptures used in that devotion:

Proverbs 22:6, “Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.” (NLT)

Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (NIV)

Now I know I can rest assured in the words of our Father, but sometimes as a sinful human I need reminders. Thank you Lord, for reminding me to turn to You for all of my worries and reminding me that You will guide me in the right path. AMEN!

MY 3OTH BIRTHDAY

I am celebrating my 30th birthday tomorrow and I want to honor Our Lord and Savior. I have had an amazing 30 years and am in awe of the glory God has brought upon me. I have a huge family that I love and adore. I have an amazing husband and three beautiful children here with one on the way along with another child/soul in heaven. I have so many special friends and we live a wonderful life.

Though my relationship with The Lord can always be better and has so much room for improvement; I am grateful for our relationship and the Father I have in Him.

My Sweet Children

JACKSON STANDING AND GRIFFIN SMILING

BRYGGEN LOVES HER BROTHERS. JACKSON IN HER ARM AND GRIFFIN IN HER FACE.

BRYGGEN HUGGING JACKSON WITH GRIFFIN SITTING ON THE RIGHT.

THE OBVIOUS- BRYGGEN WAVING HELLO.

Bryggen is such a sweet big sister. She is very helpful with her brothers and loves to play with them. She is actually excited about this little boy on the way and even hugs and kisses my belly almost every day.

Jackson is taking several steps while Griffin can stand on his own and can take a couple of steps at a time. Both have a little ways to go but are on the move.

They're all such happy children and such a joy to our lives. I am truly blessed and honored to be their mother.

23 weeks

19 weeks

Almost half way there. At 19 weeks but no name yet. We are working hard and I can not wait to give this precious boy a name. But for now things are going great. He is kicking and moving though they are small gestures at this point. I love feeling every bit and stop to enjoy it. Bryggen is much better about having another brother. She really wants to hold him and give him is bottle or like she calls it ba-ba. I think that is so super sweet.

Life has been crazy with a sick family but we are on the mends. Jackson is healing from his second double ear infection from February. Bryggen got one for the first time in two years. Mike had the flu and is now battling a bacterial infection and double ear infection. Griffin only had a mild bacterial infection early February. And I had a sinus infection and bronchitis. This never happens to our family so I am praying we are healthy for a long while. Especially because Griffin has been healthy and a happy little guy.

I am a little nervous. Mike and I are getting away this weekend. We are going to Las Vegas from Saturday to Wednesday without the kids. They will be in great hands but I am an emotional wreck. I haven't been away from them all like this. Prayers for a calm trip are appreciated. I am gonna miss them like crazy.